Sunday Post | Feeling Cursed

March 26, 2017 Sunday Post 14

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News at Home: Feeling Cursed

Yep, I’m feeling cursed! I left for spring break with everything ready for my return and for the first time in weeks, I was ahead… and the YIKES! It was rough. The kids would NOT SHUT THE F*CK UP! OMG, Y’all they came back so freaking talkative and hyper. We only have like 60 days of school left, but I can’t take 60 days like this past week. Which is why I worked close to 7 on Wednesday and Thursday, plus until 10:15 on Friday redoing the way our class runs. I watched my kid’s this week and observed that something I had started to notice before break came to fruition over break – they are (for the most part) independent learners now. Woo-hoo! Right? Well, on one side – yes! One of my goals is teaching them to take ownership of their learning. And they’ve definitely done that.

The downside? The model I’ve been using to teach just isn’t going to fly anymore. See our class schedule has been basically, whole group lesson, group activity, independent work, whole group instruction, group activity, independent work (And so on) for the majority of the day. for about an hour they have learning stations where they work independently with a partner on a learning activity I’ve setup for them. For those stations to be successful, they HAVE to take ownership – because I’m working with a small group. I’m not constantly reminding them to work. I’m not working the “power zone” to keep their behavior in check. They have to do it.

And watching my kids this week – those independent learning stations were the ONLY time they ALL consistently were on task. So I’m changing our class structure next week. The moment they walk in the room, they are in stations. Then we have a 10 minute lesson/activity at the carpet. Stations. 10 minute lesson/activity. And so on.

This means SIGNIFICANTLY more work for me. I had 11 stations before, and it would take the kids a week to get through all of them 1 time. Now, I have 22 stations (11 math, 11 reading) and they will pass through all of them in just 2 days, assuming the timing goes the way I expect. YIKES! I got setup for the week’s stations by 10:15 Friday – I had spent a good part of the day training the kids on how they will move through their day (and let me tell you, they are excited!). So yeah, had to make it happen. I’m still working on getting on the logistics for 1 week scheduled, but hopefully it won’t be too hard to reproduce week after week. It’ll just be keeping the stations fresh. Wish me luck tomorrow, it’s going to be an interesting day, to say the least!

To top that off, I was super tired – I think the meds I’m on for my foot and my prolactin imbalance are making me extra sleepy. I take them at night… and they do say they cause drowsiness… but it would seem that since I got to sleep after taking them, that wouldn’t matter. NOPE 🙁 I think my body has decided that 4.5 hours sleep isn’t going to cut it anymore. Crap. Where am I going to find the time?

The politics of it all

Not going to say a lot here, because while I did keep up with what was going on this week – AND HOLY SHIT IT WAS A LOT! – It just continues to perpetuate that feeling of being cursed. State politics are particularly disheartening at the moment, as the Texas Legislature moves to destroy teacher pensions by changing them into a 401K model. The ONE thing I had to look forward to – a guaranteed retirement fund (despite not keeping up with inflation, it’s better than a 401K) and now they’re taking that away too. Already I know I’m not likely to make more than another 10K a year in a 30 year career, that’s how bad raises are. My health insurance is ridiculous – 5000 deductable before the cover shit, but I pay close to 700/mo premium… and my state is not broke. They could afford to pay teachers better, they just don’t value us. Pure and simple. So sick of it.

And health care! *sigh* While I won’t pretend that the Affordable Care Act (aka “ObamaCare” fixed things), while I’m glad the plug got pulled on the travesty Ryan presented I’m still afraid for what they plan to work out. And what kills me most is that I don’t hear anyone saying what really needs to be said; Health Insurance is NOT Health Care!!! As long as we continue to conflate these two terms, we will fail to meet the needs of our people. Insurance implies that health care is not a basic right – it makes it something that your wealth dictates. I’m sorry, but we need to stop this rich ass selfish bullshit and just start taking care of the health of our nation! We literally keep saying that the right to HEALTH is not a basic human right and I just don’t see how anyone is okay with that. But then again, they’re also okay with pretending that global warming is a lie to line their pocket books so why not? *sigh* It’s shameful.

Blog News

Well, I haven’t really done much blogging this week. The being sleepy has killed my reading (SO SLOW) and when I get up in the morning I have a hard time getting moving, which means I’m running late and cut into my blog reading/commenting time.

#FitReaders Update

Well I didn’t do so great with the exercise this week – I worked out Monday and Tuesday, but by Wednesday I was just too damn tired in the morning to get my butt in gear.

I did pretty good with diet though… except Friday. I was so tired and had such a bad headache Friday morning I just completely left the house without eating anything. And… I forgot my lunch at home. So no lunch. And then I worked until 10:15. I found some fruit loops in my cupboard from when the kids used them to make counting by tens necklaces and had a couple of handfuls – but the sugar didn’t agree and I was too busy working to really eat anyway. And when I got home I was just so damn tired again, so I went to bed. Meaning I ate about 3 handfuls of fruit loops all day Friday. Oops…

And then my feeling cursed continued into Saturday…. I did the color run 5K. Woo-hoo! It was a blast, I did my best time ever- 40 minutes (runners, I know, that’s slow… but for the girl that used to walk it in 1hour 10 minutes, that’s awesome)! But when it was over, I felt some pain in my knee. I even posted, “Well I think I twisted my knee a tiny bit, but it was fun. And I’m orange :)” Well, a little bit turned out to be a lot. By mid-afternoon my knee was swollen huge. And I’m now nursing Aleeve and ice rotations, keeping it elevated. After about 2 weeks no pain while walking (foot still feels great!) and now bam! the knee! See why I’m feeling cursed?

Last Week on the Blog

This Week on the Blog Look For:

Sunday

Sunday Post | Feeling Cursed

Monday

It’s Monday! What I’m Reading March 27th

Tuesday 

Top Ten Authors I Can’t Believe I’ve Met

Wednesday 

Ceremony in Death #review

Thursday

Not sure — maybe an outlander post if I can get it watched. Or a Furthermore (#mytbrl pick) review if I can get it finished. Or nada.

Friday 

Vengeance in Death #review

Saturday

My TBR List | April 2017 Voting

How was your week?

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14 Responses to “Sunday Post | Feeling Cursed”

  1. mrs ismail

    it is the lack of sleep, I’m sure. And the meds may be affecting you as well. How long do you have to take those?
    Politics just make me crazy these days

  2. Samantha of You Look Attractive

    Hats off to you Berls! Despite the injuries, you still have the dedication to prepare all the stuff that you need for the kids activities. I just hope all the teacher in the world can have the same passion and dedication similar to yours.
    And please, stop entertaining pessimism and thinking how unlucky or feeling cursed you are when in reality you are so blessed with the profession you are into, molding kids to be responsible citizens. You may not see it right now, but when these kids grow up and become successful in their own means, you’ll just realize that you have done a major role in getting them to where they are.

  3. Jeff

    Yeah it does sound like alot of work. You should get more rest and not try to do too many things. Great teacher indeed.

  4. Mark McKnight
    Twitter:

    I love how you are so open about what’s going on in your life Berls. Being a dad of two, I can really relate to some of things you are experiencing on a daily basis. Thanks!

  5. Mehedi Hasan Rocky
    Twitter:

    Happy to hear your foot is feeling better. But sorry that you are feeling cursed. I think you should make some changes in your life. I wish your better life . May be your should sleep well. To know about how to sleep well naturally at night you can get a help from Best Learning School. Here you will get an article about How to sleep better naturally at night
    Don’t be upset,remember we should think that we are now in a better position.
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  6. Bookworm Brandee

    I’m sorry you’re feeling cursed, Berls, but can I commend you on your ability to be dynamic in your classroom – change things around, switch things up – for your kiddos?? I know it was a ton more work for you and it might stay that way but fingers crossed it affects the change you’re hoping to see and your kiddos’ learning really takes off!
    I’m sorry you’re so tired…it is the lack of sleep, I’m sure. And the meds may be affecting you as well. How long do you have to take those?
    Politics just make me crazy these days! Ugh! I can’t believe what Texas is trying to do to their teachers. Interestingly, I’ve been told often that teachers graduating in Colorado go to Texas because Texas values their teachers more than Colorado. That’s a sad statement. :/
    Keep working at your fitness goals! You’ll get there…we both will!!
    {{{BIG HUGS}}}
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  7. Jen Twimom
    Twitter:

    Oh hun… sorry you are feeling cursed. I understand that feeling… when all sorts of things seem to blow up at once. I hope your knee is okay! And 40 minutes for a 5k is AWESOME!

    Again, you amaze me as a teacher. The fact that you observed what was going on and are making such significant changes to help your kids is simply amazing. When my son was in K, I wish he had a teacher like you. It was his worst year because the teacher refused to change her routine and ways to do things and it didn’t fit with my independent boy. GRRRR.. (He’s in 7th grade now, I really am over it! haha). Anyhow, you are a rock star and one of my heroes. Great job!

    We’ll discuss politics another time. 😉 But Texas is NOT a good place right now.
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  8. Barb (boxermommyreads)
    Twitter:

    Wow, sounds like you had a super hectic week. Hope you get to feeling less tired soon. I won’t even go into politics because it depresses me but I just want to validate your feelings. It seems we can’t turn on the news without some blame game or trash talking – you’d think we were watching a recreational sports event with all this drama yet it is effecting people’s lives. Wishing you a better week!
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  9. Melanie Simmons
    Twitter:

    Glad your foot is feeling better. Sucks that now your knee is messed up. Hope that heals quickly. Glad you’re able to be flexible with your kids’ schedule to work for what is best for these kids, instead of trying to force something else on them. I completely agree with “health insurance isn’t health care” statement. I’m starting to see the Democrats pushing for “Medicare for all”. It will be interesting to see how many run in 2018 on that idea. It will be interesting to see if any of the Republicans will actually work to fix ACA or just try to continue to sabotage it so they can say “I told you so”. I hope you have a great week. {{hugs}}
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  10. Katherine
    Twitter:

    That does sound like a lot of extra work but the way you’re able to analyze what’s working for your students and make changes is impressive! This week is our week back for spring break too and I don’t know what school’s been like but it’s been ugly at home. Lots of talking and and misbehavior which isn’t typical for him. I’m thinking everyone is still trying to get back on schedule and throwing in the time change with all that did not help! Hope next week will be smoother. Have a great week!
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  11. Kathryn Trask

    Hmm that sounds like a lot of work for you in the classroom, I hope you will be able to keep the stations going without exhausting yourself in preparation. Your class is so fortunate to have such a caring hardworking teacher. Yeah I know! Chatty chat chat, It’s what a Spring Break does to them!!
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